After the twelfth rejection—a fifty-year-old drunk named William Foster, who walked away even after my father offered him a third of our annual profits—I understood one thing clearly: I would die alone. My father understood this too. And it terrified him.
One evening in March 1856, he called me into his study.
“I will marry you to Josiah,” he said.
I burst out laughing. Not because it was funny, but because it sounded impossible.
“The blacksmith,” he clarified.
The room fell silent.
“Father… Josiah is a slave.”
“Yes,” he said. “I know exactly what I’m doing.”
I thought he’d lost his mind. What I didn’t know was that I was about to meet the man who would change everything I thought I knew about strength… and valor.
They called him “the brute.” Seven feet tall, if not taller. Two hundred pounds of iron-forged muscle. Hands scarred from the forge. Shoulders that barely fit through doors. White visitors whispered about him. Slaves gave him space. He looked like a weapon.
The first time he entered our living room, he had to duck under the cornice. His eyes never left the floor.
“Yes, sir,” he said to my father, his voice deep but soft.
When we were alone, the silence stretched like a test neither of us wanted to fail.
“Are you afraid of me, miss?” he asked.
“Should I be?” I replied.
“No, miss. I would never hurt you.”
His enormous hands rested gently on my knees. And then I asked the question that changed everything:
“Can you read?”
A flash of fear crossed his face. Teaching slaves to read was illegal.
“Yes,” he said finally. “I taught myself.”
“What do you read?”
“Everything I can find. Shakespeare. Newspapers. Anything.”
“What’s your favorite play?”
“The Tempest,” he replied without hesitation. “Prospero calls Caliban a monster… but Caliban was a slave on his own island. Makes you wonder who the real monster is.”
And just like that, the brute vanished. In her place was a man who could discuss Shakespeare with more insight than half the men who had rejected me.
We talked for hours about Ariel and freedom, about being trapped in bodies and systems that defined you before you could define yourself. When he finally said, “Anyone who can’t see beyond a wheelchair is a fool,” something inside me opened. For the first time in fourteen years, I felt seen. Not pitied. Not tolerated. Seen.